Book 4 - Blue Oblong
Regulation and integration of behaviour, thoughts and feelings, maturation of beliefs and values (especially those to do with conventions, rules and relationships with authority), understanding of pace, timeliness and timelessness, combined with stability (perhaps stagnation).With your eye to your inner self, consider the following.Your capacity for mature consideration has perhaps brought you to a place of stagnation. Paradoxically, it may be those same qualities that help you see a need for spontaneity to lift you out of stagnation. Through methodical self-examination and disciplined decision-making, you have developed a well-regulated and mature personality. It is against this that your question or issue has arisen. You may be living a satisfactory life, both within yourself and in your lifestyle, but has passion and drive slipped away? Do you take comfort in the stability of your mind, or are you due for some disruption or some irrational pleasure to return to inner stability?You are aware of your own ageing process. Are there things you would do before you are too old that do not fit comfortably with your mature and stable personality? Are there other aspects to your personality you want to express at this stage?You generally keep to social conventions and recognise that established rules come from careful thought and experience. You have a mature relationship with authority, not being in awe of those who have authority, nor anxious to mix with them, nor fawning towards them. You have integrity and know you would call persons of authority to account for abuse of their power, and you would challenge unreasonable rules or oppressive conventions.It could be that all of this is due for a shakeup. Sometimes things do just happen, outside our control or influence, and our adaptability is challenged. Perhaps your beliefs and values, which emphasise self-reliance and co-operation for mutual benefit, are due for a shakeup. Sometimes we require a giving away of control for faith in the Great Mystery and the Great Awareness beyond our understanding, and go as a child to connect with it, for the right things we desire to come to pass. Or it may be that your life will be enriched by giving control of some aspect or some event to someone else or to some other aspect of yourself. Perhaps you would benefit from experiencing a period of less stability, to progress to a higher level of stability which requires less careful attention.Although you need to attend to issues of your integrity and ageing when you focus on your own nature and purpose in life, it may be helpful to measure yourself in the light of other energies. Observe the sensations of your body and mind when you consider giving more or giving less expression to your physical or sexual energy and appetites, and your enjoyment of material things; your ability to think clearly and detached from emotions; your emotions and their ability to know and flow towards the good; your capacity for transcendence, synergy, spirituality. One of these energies may be the key to a new path towards your goals, or the redefinition of your goals.Close your eyes now, and with a view to experiencing a deeper satisfaction in changing yourself, to a new level of stable integrity, with enhanced capacity for timeliness, understanding of your ageing process and understanding of the timelessness of fundamental truths, ask yourself -“What words would be right and helpful for me to say, or for me to hear another say, right now?” “What does that mean to me, what is that about?” “What does that say about the things I value and really want in my life?” “What does that say about who I am?”